MY FIRST POST..

FLASHING BACK 18/3/2007

when i was seriously,terribly hurt..i lost someone that is very important in my life..

A story of jigsaw puzzle….post

Everyone have a jigsaw puzzle of their own in their life..the jigsaw puzzle represents their life..but to complete it needs a long time and it is very tough to arrange..if one day they have completed the jigsaw puzzle ,they have found the happiness..Actually I also have a very complete and beautiful jigsaw puzzle..although sometimes some of those pieces had lost but I am still able to find them back..paste them back to make the puzzle complete again..inside my jigsaw puzzle, there are many things..my heart, my future , my dream , my happiness..my routine..the whole life of mine..everyone is envy of me…I always very glad that the God gives me the best present that I had ever received..thanks god..I felt blessed but happiness doesn’t last for long time. One day my jigsaw puzzle accidentally fell and scattered. A gust of wind came and blew all of them away suddenly when I tried to gather them back again..my dream , my happiness that I built is gone ,totally..suddenly I feel that I am like a zombie..a heartless human, with no dream and future..why am I will become like that? I have no strength to live..no confident to do everything…I have tried my best to find those pieces back but failed..However, I am very lucky..the God sent many angels to help me ,guide me..they are my friends that I love..they gave me a lot of strength ,love and care to build a new heart and tried their best to help me find back all those scattered pieces of my jigsaw puzzle..I am trying now..I must be tough again..even it need long time I also have to find them back again to continue my life..but there is something I know..even I have found all of them but I will still lost one piece..it is lost ,forever..hope that I will found another new piece that can suit it one day and make my life complete ,for once again. Hope the God will give it to me one day…

P/S...LOVE REALLY HURTS...IT STILL LEFT A BIG HUGE WOUND INSIDE MY HEART WHICH I DUNNO I NEED HOW MUCH OF TIMES TO HEAL IT..BUT EVEN I HAV SUCCESSFULLY HEAL IT PERHAPS IT MAY LEAVE AN UGLY SCAR DEEP INSIDE...I KNOW THAT THE INCIDENT MAKE ME GROW ALOT IN PHYSICALLY N MENTALLY WHICH MAKE ME A BETTER PERSON BUT YET THERE IS SOMETHING THAT STILL MAKE ME FEET THAT I M BAD,MAKE ME NOT CONFIDENT TO MYSELF ANYMORE,MAKE ME EMO SOMETIME,MAKE ME REGRET,MAKE ME...

COMPLICATED FEELING..T.T