Every season have their own beauty

its happen WHEN... today morning i was going to go for class....
the moment i open my hostel main door..i shouted WOW...ITS SO SO PRETTY..SO BEAUTIFUL..SO BREATHTAKING..guess wat..is is is

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TADAH..the scene which only we can see in NARNIA THE MOVIE..

white whities whitest...
although it ad started snowing since 2 weeks ago..n i had pass through my first winter in moscow..but i din even saw this breathtaking scenery b4.. This winter scenery is like a storybook picture. The ground looks like a marshmallow heaven with glowing snow all over the ground. The snow mounds look like a big dish of vanilla ice cream. Winter is a delight to my eyes. The fresh snow crunches and crackles when you walk. The wind howls.The snowflakes fall to the ground..



Icicles shimmer like crystal hanging on the leaves. .


winter looks dazzling with its frosty windows and icy streets


view outside from my room..

btw that...i juz bought a white Christmas tree for my room..
i Miss christmas alot...i miss my presents that lying under the tree..i miss my big greenish christmas tree..i miss the phemomenon of opening my presents in christmas eve..i miss the joys n voices from my families n friends during the open house....


colored lights,ornaments n small reddish ball wrapping around the tree..

a beautiful gold angel standing on top the white tree watching over christmas..

T.T

i lost my purse last 2 weeks :(...i dunno where i lost it..n the sad thing is i juz realised it after 2 days later...i was searching up n down in my room but still couldn't find it...haih...the worst part was i had rm 1000 inside, student's insurans card for me in moscow, identity card,my card license,nATM card...that large amount of money is the a part of my europe trip money which i suppose to pay for the air thicket n etc..sobz sobz sobz....wat should i do for it??nothing else cant be done except keep praying it will suddenly appear one day...neutral feeling....

because of that incident...it makes me think twice to go to europe on this coming winter holidays..my mum juz bank in that huge amount of money for me that day...i wouldn't want her to give me even one cent of coins..i dun want my carelessness will make her burden increase..i knew that she wont scold me..may b she will bank in some money for me..but seriously dunno y i feel very guilty each time i want money from my parents..most of the time i do wish i can graduate faster n earn my own money to spend...

after 2 weeks of thinking..finally yesterday i decided to give up my europe trip...im so wish that i can follow my classmate to ITALY-MILAN,CZECH,GERMANY,AUSTRIA,SWITZERLAND..n we ad booked the flight ticket.n now i wasted my rm 300 ticket money for not going..one of them give up going oso because of i m not following..felt so sorry to her..bye bye europe..i will visiting U only next year..

small little things..

Small little things do have its own value.
Small little things do meant something.
Small little things are still things
THIS IS WHY A LITTLE UNSEEN, UNIMPORTANT SMALL THINGS MAKE ME HAPPY TOO..

thanks...

passed my histo coloq with a bad mark today..quite sad throughout the whole day..juz dunno wat is going on with me..although i'm very confident with the slides name..but i still end up telling my teacher the wrong ans..something that make my day today..thanks for marcus,ziwan & sapient cooking today..n derek sweet curry..thanks alot..this small thingy cheer me up till the end of the day..appreciate it..n the sweet chocolate..simplicity makes me smile..=)

JUZ WANNA TO TELL..

i had abandoned my blog for pass few months..this is due to i went back malaysia for a summer break n had a great holidays there...when i come back to moscow again in the september someone approached me n asking me to join the facilitator group for the orientation for the newbies as they r not familiar to this new place...i spend my times everyday helping them to change money..bringing them everywhere to shop for their grocery,furniture,winter cloths n etc..helping them to register in the uni all...alot more...juz hoping them wont b feeling loneyly or even miss their sweet homes to much...juz want to c they oso can survive here with a sentence --I M VERY GLAD THAT I CHOOSE HERE TO STUDY..I FEEL VERY HAPPY...this sentence is more than enough to enlighten my days...but i think most of them now ad can adapt well n done most of the things well by themselves..bravo..

i m busy with my study also..my final exam for anatomy n histolgy is coming soon..scary..
for aishan--i m ur regular blog reader..hehe..i do visit ur blog everyday..i wish i can share with u my thoughts ..i will be back soon after my exam..miss u so much..
for my frens in malaysia--i do miss u all very much..i didnt reply everyone msg in friendster,msn or even in phone n call sometime..
i will get back to u all after i finish my exam..a small little promise i would like to make..each n everyone of u is the strenght to make me live well n happy..GOD BLESS..

MY FIRST POST..

FLASHING BACK 18/3/2007

when i was seriously,terribly hurt..i lost someone that is very important in my life..

A story of jigsaw puzzle….post

Everyone have a jigsaw puzzle of their own in their life..the jigsaw puzzle represents their life..but to complete it needs a long time and it is very tough to arrange..if one day they have completed the jigsaw puzzle ,they have found the happiness..Actually I also have a very complete and beautiful jigsaw puzzle..although sometimes some of those pieces had lost but I am still able to find them back..paste them back to make the puzzle complete again..inside my jigsaw puzzle, there are many things..my heart, my future , my dream , my happiness..my routine..the whole life of mine..everyone is envy of me…I always very glad that the God gives me the best present that I had ever received..thanks god..I felt blessed but happiness doesn’t last for long time. One day my jigsaw puzzle accidentally fell and scattered. A gust of wind came and blew all of them away suddenly when I tried to gather them back again..my dream , my happiness that I built is gone ,totally..suddenly I feel that I am like a zombie..a heartless human, with no dream and future..why am I will become like that? I have no strength to live..no confident to do everything…I have tried my best to find those pieces back but failed..However, I am very lucky..the God sent many angels to help me ,guide me..they are my friends that I love..they gave me a lot of strength ,love and care to build a new heart and tried their best to help me find back all those scattered pieces of my jigsaw puzzle..I am trying now..I must be tough again..even it need long time I also have to find them back again to continue my life..but there is something I know..even I have found all of them but I will still lost one piece..it is lost ,forever..hope that I will found another new piece that can suit it one day and make my life complete ,for once again. Hope the God will give it to me one day…

P/S...LOVE REALLY HURTS...IT STILL LEFT A BIG HUGE WOUND INSIDE MY HEART WHICH I DUNNO I NEED HOW MUCH OF TIMES TO HEAL IT..BUT EVEN I HAV SUCCESSFULLY HEAL IT PERHAPS IT MAY LEAVE AN UGLY SCAR DEEP INSIDE...I KNOW THAT THE INCIDENT MAKE ME GROW ALOT IN PHYSICALLY N MENTALLY WHICH MAKE ME A BETTER PERSON BUT YET THERE IS SOMETHING THAT STILL MAKE ME FEET THAT I M BAD,MAKE ME NOT CONFIDENT TO MYSELF ANYMORE,MAKE ME EMO SOMETIME,MAKE ME REGRET,MAKE ME...

COMPLICATED FEELING..T.T

I LIKE...I LOVE..I PREFER..I M ADDICTED..

i like..
-eat
-ice-cream
-chocolate
-dairy products
-people around me
-traveling around
-sunny day
-read people's blog
-sleep
-study
-talk
-watch movie
-sports
-cooking
-baking
-hanging around

i love...
-helping people around
-live i this wonderful world
- daydreaming
-frens that trust me
-seeing a wide wide smile from people's face
-designing
-if a person did a small thingy with very sincere that is enough to make me feel damn touch..
-each n every of my friends..
-keep changing my hair style
-buying pretty things

I prefer..
-you to be honest to me no matter wat happen
-you to share things with me
-you to apologize sincerely if u did something wrong n i m for sure will forgive u
-you to trust me with ur whole heart
-getting hurt than hurting people
-straight forward to me when u r going to comment about me
-to let out my feeling to my best buddy when i not satisfied with someone but after few minutes i will be ok n 4get about it...