xiang3r

happy 21st birthday to dear HOONG & XIAN

2009-03-25T14:26:00.001+02:00

Meaningless

2009-03-24T22:37:00.004+02:00

feel stress..
feel disappointed..
feel hurt..
feel sad..
feel like dying..
feel useless..
feel unvaluable..

but i cant do anything..

The meaning of hate

2009-03-24T22:18:00.002+02:00

1- To love less
2- To be very unwilling
3- Strong aversion coupled with desire that evil should befall the person toward whom the feeling is directed; as exercised toward things, intense dislike; hatred; detestation; -- opposed to love.

What will u feel if the person that u love tell u I HATE YOU??

from u to me..爱太痛--吴克群 & from me to u..

2008-12-30T23:16:00.004+02:00

吴克群 - 爱太痛
(Kenji Wu - Ai Tai Tong) Lyric

吃不能吃睡不能睡
Chi bu neng chi shui bu neng chi
没有了你全都不对
Mei you le ni quan dou bu dui
我都学不会把爱敷衍
Wo dou xue bu hui ba ai fu yan
用笑容来把眼泪催眠
Yong xiao rong lai ba yan lei chui mian
笑不能笑哭不敢哭
Xiao bu neng xiao khu bu gan khu
人不像人鬼不像鬼
Ren bu xiang ren gui bu xiang gui

朋友都说这不过失恋
Peng you dou shuo zhe bu guo shi lian
但我却连呼吸都胆怯
Dan wo que lian hu xi dou dan qie
能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
Neng bu neng bu ai le yin wei ai tai tong le
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
Wo tong de kuai shi le qu wu fa ba ni wang le
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
Neng bu neng bu ai le ai qing ta tai tong le
我痛得快死了却无法把爱割舍
Wo tong de kuai shi le que bu fa ba ai ge shi
我不能睡
Wo bu neng shui
我不能够不能够不爱了
Wo bu neng gou bu neng gou bu ai le

p/s--to 你..对。。不过失恋。。没什么大不了的。。爱情不是人生的全部。。我们还有很多东西要去学习要去实现。。以前你都能做到，为什么现在不能？？因为我也做到了。。虽然有时会想起。。心会抽痛一下。。可是后来不是也没事了吗？？伤心或快乐我们也要过生活。。就为了自己吧。。我们一起努力开开心心的走下去。。带给身边的人快乐。。这岂不是更好。。你知道吗当我听到你在电话里哭的声。。我很担心。。我很心痛。。我不懂要对你说什么。。我很明白你的感受。。不过我想告诉你这不过是个度过期。。很快就会没事了。。就算它需要很长的时间。。不过不要紧。。我会陪你一直走下去。。
你伤心她也不知也不在乎。。既然你对她已不重要了。。就是着放手吧。。让自己开心一点。。为自己好好的生活。。好好的爱自己。。。好好考好成绩。。努力提升自己。。以后你会比现在更加成功。。更加多人会欣赏你珍惜你。。答应我好吗？？你会好好的照顾自己。。

it's CHRISTMAS my dear..

2008-12-25T01:25:00.003+02:00

it has been snowing outside since yesterday..i m having a white Christmas right now..which most of the people in tropical country looking forward it..

It is really a white Christmas but nothing much that significance to me..
i miss hanging out with my friends on the Christmas eve..i miss i m busy wishing each n everyone merry Christmas in verbal..i miss opening my presents that my family members give..i miss my family n aunts all..i miss my green Christmas tree..i miss shopping with my aunty for Christmas present n new cloths b4 Christmas..i miss every single small things.

this year.2008..my perception on Christmas is different..for me today Christmas represent forgiveness..sharing..thanksgiving..giving..
about me>>
-I m the person that straight forward..
-I wont believe in rumors.
-I try to be more responsible..
-I will get angry on people sometime n bla bla bla scold them in front of my friends.but after few minutes i will regret for scolding them..i feel guilty for talking bad about them.
-I m so easily to forgive people even though they hurt me deeply..juz with one sincere sorry from you is enough for me..n i will trust them again n again..
my most weakest point is when i know that people doesn't trust me n i will feel superb sad..
-I dun know y m i so sensitive in the trust words..perhaps something tat happen to me b4..
but no matter what i still trust on people..people smile enlighten my days..small matter or small things that each n everyone did to me make me feels great..
-I want to help every single person if i can..
-I want to give my care n smile to everyone who r in need,sad,depress,suffering or even hurt..

in this Christmas..i think that i had been blessed a lot by GOD..DEAR LORD..thanks for bringing me in this world..thanks for giving me a great life..thanks for forgiving all my sins..thanks for dying for our sins..thanks for talking n spending Ur time with us..thanks for listening to our prayers,our mumblings,our wish..THANK YOU SO MUCH LORD..i love u..

thanks for every single person that enter n appearing in my life..family,friends,teacher,strangers..each n everyone of u make my life interesting,more colorful,more rainbows appear..let us juz forget all the misunderstanding,arguments,betrays or any bad things in our past n start a new n closer relationship...i m sorry for what i had done that hurt u all..SORRY..

p/s>>DEAR SANTA..i wish u can give me more strength n ability to help n care others n people in needy..i wish i can make everyone happy..i can make them smile..can u give me this thing as a present??

P/S 2-- to my dear little nephew Santa..thanks for Ur present..i really very touch by it..n i will always appreciate it..u know who u are..=)

I WOULD LIKE TO WISH EACH N EVERYONE MERRY CHRISTMAS

tired..

2008-12-21T16:53:00.001+02:00

“I'm so tired, but I can't sleep...standing on the edge of something much too deep...funny how I feel so much but cannot say a word...we are screaming inside, oh, but we can't be heard...so afraid to love you, more afraid to lose...clinging to a past”

i MISS..

2008-12-17T17:56:00.002+02:00

i miss everyone in malaysia..

complicated feeling..

2008-12-02T01:02:00.007+02:00

still remember the poem i had studied in form 2---THE ROAD NOT TAKEN by robert frost..

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

sometime i dunno which way or which decision i should make or choose....being very confusing..
perhaps sometime i too care other's feeling
It is a truism that any choice we make is going to make
 “all the difference” in how our future turns out..

p/s..ramdom thinking at that time..i 4get wat m i going to continue
to write on tat day..i m lost...

the smiley sky...

2008-12-01T19:32:00.002+02:00

everyone there..did u all happy today??the sky is juz smiling right now..1st of December...on of my friends had juz sent me the picture of malaysia night sky..the appearance of the 2 stars matches the position of the moon make the sky smile..who ever right now having their problems,their sadness,their loneliness n all the bad lucks beside them..juz look into the sky..the GOD is smiling at u..he is telling u"my dear children..dun worry..juz leave all ur problems n everything to me..i will give u strenght give u wisdom..guide u..hold ur hand n be with u to help u ..surrender urself to me..trust n hav faith in me..i love u so much my children"everyone right there i m hoping u all can smile throughout the day..no matter wat happen juz face it with a smile..calm urself down..the unclear thing will be seen..listen to the GOD,the problems will be solve..trust me..it works..i wish that i can help each n everyone as much as i can..

my 'mum' brother died today..

quote for today--“If the people we love are stolen from us, the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them. Buildings burn, people die, but real love is forever.”

Every season have their own beauty

2008-11-26T19:58:00.021+02:00

its happen WHEN... today morning i was going to go for class....
the moment i open my hostel main door..i shouted WOW...ITS SO SO PRETTY..SO BEAUTIFUL..SO BREATHTAKING..guess wat..is is is

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TADAH..the scene which only we can see in NARNIA THE MOVIE..

white whities whitest...
although it ad started snowing since 2 weeks ago..n i had pass through my first winter in moscow..but i din even saw this breathtaking scenery b4.. This winter scenery is like a storybook picture. The ground looks like a marshmallow heaven with glowing snow all over the ground. The snow mounds look like a big dish of vanilla ice cream. Winter is a delight to my eyes. The fresh snow crunches and crackles when you walk. The wind howls.The snowflakes fall to the ground..

Icicles shimmer like crystal hanging on the leaves. .

winter looks dazzling with its frosty windows and icy streets

view outside from my room..

btw that...i juz bought a white Christmas tree for my room..
i Miss christmas alot...i miss my presents that lying under the tree..i miss my big greenish christmas tree..i miss the phemomenon of opening my presents in christmas eve..i miss the joys n voices from my families n friends during the open house....

colored lights,ornaments n small reddish ball wrapping around the tree..

a beautiful gold angel standing on top the white tree watching over christmas..

T.T

2008-11-26T19:00:00.002+02:00

i lost my purse last 2 weeks :(...i dunno where i lost it..n the sad thing is i juz realised it after 2 days later...i was searching up n down in my room but still couldn't find it...haih...the worst part was i had rm 1000 inside, student's insurans card for me in moscow, identity card,my card license,nATM card...that large amount of money is the a part of my europe trip money which i suppose to pay for the air thicket n etc..sobz sobz sobz....wat should i do for it??nothing else cant be done except keep praying it will suddenly appear one day...neutral feeling....

because of that incident...it makes me think twice to go to europe on this coming winter holidays..my mum juz bank in that huge amount of money for me that day...i wouldn't want her to give me even one cent of coins..i dun want my carelessness will make her burden increase..i knew that she wont scold me..may b she will bank in some money for me..but seriously dunno y i feel very guilty each time i want money from my parents..most of the time i do wish i can graduate faster n earn my own money to spend...

after 2 weeks of thinking..finally yesterday i decided to give up my europe trip...im so wish that i can follow my classmate to ITALY-MILAN,CZECH,GERMANY,AUSTRIA,SWITZERLAND..n we ad booked the flight ticket.n now i wasted my rm 300 ticket money for not going..one of them give up going oso because of i m not following..felt so sorry to her..bye bye europe..i will visiting U only next year..

small little things..

2008-11-24T23:54:00.001+02:00

Small little things do have its own value.
Small little things do meant something.
Small little things are still things
THIS IS WHY A LITTLE UNSEEN, UNIMPORTANT SMALL THINGS MAKE ME HAPPY TOO..

thanks...

2008-11-24T23:13:00.002+02:00

passed my histo coloq with a bad mark today..quite sad throughout the whole day..juz dunno wat is going on with me..although i'm very confident with the slides name..but i still end up telling my teacher the wrong ans..something that make my day today..thanks for marcus,ziwan & sapient cooking today..n derek sweet curry..thanks alot..this small thingy cheer me up till the end of the day..appreciate it..n the sweet chocolate..simplicity makes me smile..=)

JUZ WANNA TO TELL..

2008-11-23T00:29:00.002+02:00

i had abandoned my blog for pass few months..this is due to i went back malaysia for a summer break n had a great holidays there...when i come back to moscow again in the september someone approached me n asking me to join the facilitator group for the orientation for the newbies as they r not familiar to this new place...i spend my times everyday helping them to change money..bringing them everywhere to shop for their grocery,furniture,winter cloths n etc..helping them to register in the uni all...alot more...juz hoping them wont b feeling loneyly or even miss their sweet homes to much...juz want to c they oso can survive here with a sentence --I M VERY GLAD THAT I CHOOSE HERE TO STUDY..I FEEL VERY HAPPY...this sentence is more than enough to enlighten my days...but i think most of them now ad can adapt well n done most of the things well by themselves..bravo..

i m busy with my study also..my final exam for anatomy n histolgy is coming soon..scary..
for aishan--i m ur regular blog reader..hehe..i do visit ur blog everyday..i wish i can share with u my thoughts ..i will be back soon after my exam..miss u so much..
for my frens in malaysia--i do miss u all very much..i didnt reply everyone msg in friendster,msn or even in phone n call sometime..
i will get back to u all after i finish my exam..a small little promise i would like to make..each n everyone of u is the strenght to make me live well n happy..GOD BLESS..

MY FIRST POST..

2008-11-23T00:10:00.003+02:00

FLASHING BACK 18/3/2007

when i was seriously,terribly hurt..i lost someone that is very important in my life..

A story of jigsaw puzzle….post

Everyone have a jigsaw puzzle of their own in their life..the jigsaw puzzle represents their life..but to complete it needs a long time and it is very tough to arrange..if one day they have completed the jigsaw puzzle ,they have found the happiness..Actually I also have a very complete and beautiful jigsaw puzzle..although sometimes some of those pieces had lost but I am still able to find them back..paste them back to make the puzzle complete again..inside my jigsaw puzzle, there are many things..my heart, my future , my dream , my happiness..my routine..the whole life of mine..everyone is envy of me…I always very glad that the God gives me the best present that I had ever received..thanks god..I felt blessed but happiness doesn’t last for long time. One day my jigsaw puzzle accidentally fell and scattered. A gust of wind came and blew all of them away suddenly when I tried to gather them back again..my dream , my happiness that I built is gone ,totally..suddenly I feel that I am like a zombie..a heartless human, with no dream and future..why am I will become like that? I have no strength to live..no confident to do everything…I have tried my best to find those pieces back but failed..However, I am very lucky..the God sent many angels to help me ,guide me..they are my friends that I love..they gave me a lot of strength ,love and care to build a new heart and tried their best to help me find back all those scattered pieces of my jigsaw puzzle..I am trying now..I must be tough again..even it need long time I also have to find them back again to continue my life..but there is something I know..even I have found all of them but I will still lost one piece..it is lost ,forever..hope that I will found another new piece that can suit it one day and make my life complete ,for once again. Hope the God will give it to me one day…

P/S...LOVE REALLY HURTS...IT STILL LEFT A BIG HUGE WOUND INSIDE MY HEART WHICH I DUNNO I NEED HOW MUCH OF TIMES TO HEAL IT..BUT EVEN I HAV SUCCESSFULLY HEAL IT PERHAPS IT MAY LEAVE AN UGLY SCAR DEEP INSIDE...I KNOW THAT THE INCIDENT MAKE ME GROW ALOT IN PHYSICALLY N MENTALLY WHICH MAKE ME A BETTER PERSON BUT YET THERE IS SOMETHING THAT STILL MAKE ME FEET THAT I M BAD,MAKE ME NOT CONFIDENT TO MYSELF ANYMORE,MAKE ME EMO SOMETIME,MAKE ME REGRET,MAKE ME...

COMPLICATED FEELING..T.T

I LIKE...I LOVE..I PREFER..I M ADDICTED..

2008-11-22T23:41:00.002+02:00

i like..
-eat
-ice-cream
-chocolate
-dairy products
-people around me
-traveling around
-sunny day
-read people's blog
-sleep
-study
-talk
-watch movie
-sports
-cooking
-baking
-hanging around

i love...
-helping people around
-live i this wonderful world
- daydreaming
-frens that trust me
-seeing a wide wide smile from people's face
-designing
-if a person did a small thingy with very sincere that is enough to make me feel damn touch..
-each n every of my friends..
-keep changing my hair style
-buying pretty things

I prefer..
-you to be honest to me no matter wat happen
-you to share things with me
-you to apologize sincerely if u did something wrong n i m for sure will forgive u
-you to trust me with ur whole heart
-getting hurt than hurting people
-straight forward to me when u r going to comment about me
-to let out my feeling to my best buddy when i not satisfied with someone but after few minutes i will be ok n 4get about it...

PHEW..

2008-06-21T20:11:00.005+03:00

finally i finished all my hard anatomy n histology last week..phew..wat a big relieve..2 more steps(EXAMZ) to be back..i like the post of"you says,bible says"..found it from betty blog..its really motivate me alots...

YOU SAY, GOD SAYS & BIBLE VERSES

2008-06-21T20:08:00.000+03:00

You say: 'It's impossible' God says: All things are possible (Luke 18:27)
You say: 'I'm too tired' God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)
You say: 'Nobody really loves me' God says: I love you (John 3:16 & John 3:34)
You say: 'I can't go on' God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians12:9 & Psalm 91:15)
You say: 'I can't figure things out' God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)
You say: 'I can't do it' God says: You can do all things (Philippians 4:13)
You say: 'I'm not able' God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)
You say: 'It's not worth it' God says: It will be worth it (Roman 8:28 )
You say: 'I can't forgive myself' God says: I Forgive you (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
You say: 'I can't manage' God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)
You say: 'I'm afraid' God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)
You say: 'I'm always worried and frustracted' God says: Cast all your cares on ME (I Peter 5:7)
You say: 'I'm not smart enough' God says: I give you wisdom (I Corinthians 1:30)
You say: 'I feel all alone' God says: I will never leave you or forsake you (Hebrews 13:5)

Go GO go..

2008-06-05T15:40:00.002+03:00

passed my 2 test today..get my chem auvtomat..still got anat,histo n russian test to go for tomorrow...seriously need a energy apple now..hehes..learned something recently..DUN TRY TO CHANGE A PERSON THAT U LOVE...IF U ALWIZ ASK HIM/HER CHANGE THIS OR THAT,END UP WITH >>>THEY ONLY WILL LIE TO U TO MAKE U HAPPY..LOVE THE PERSON FOR WHO THEY ARE..

tension giler.

2008-06-05T15:35:00.002+03:00

1.Do you call anyone babe?

- ya..my fren

2. Who's car were you last in?

- russian's bus

3. When is the next time you will kiss

someone?

- my frens for sure..on their cheek..

4. What color shirt are you wearing?

- white

5. What kind of flower do u like?

- daisy..

9. Last thing you ate?

- bread..

10. Last thing you drank?

- water..

11. Where did you sleep last night?

- in my roon...

13. Are you happy right now?

- not really... i'm tensed actually..

14. What did you say last?

- oww...tomorrow got anat,histo n russian test..hells..

15. Where is your phone?

- in my bag..

16. color of your toothbrush?

- green n white...

17. color of your eyes?

- black...

18. ???

- wat?

19. What was the highlight of your

week?

- study for exam.

20 Who/what do you hate currently?

- tans of exam..

21. If you could have someone with you

right now who would it be?

- ppl who can teach me anat n histo..hehes

22. What makes you happiest?

- thinking to back soon..woowoo..

23. What were you doing at midnight

last night?

- sleeping n studying..

24. What's for dinner tonight?

- dunno yet.lazy to cook..

25. What is the last alcoholic beverage

you had?

- REDS

26. When is your birthday?

- 22 august..

27. Where was the last place you went

shopping?

- ermm...no time to go..

play safe...

2008-06-04T16:25:00.003+03:00

need to study save to pass my exam n coloq with flying colour..feeling damn stress..thanks to all my frens in malaysia for keep supporting me..give me alot of strength n energy to work harder than b4..love u all...3 weeks for malaysia..c u all soon ya..love..XOXO..

question ar question..

2008-06-03T00:30:00.002+03:00

1.If your doctor told you TODAY that you were pregnant, what would you say?
= OMG...its great..but DIE..how the hell i going to tell my parents?
2. When was the last time you flew in a plane?
= 7 months ago.. MALAYSIA-MOSCOW
3. What did the last text message you sent say?
= quite a long time din sent a msg through my hp..keke
4. What features do you find most attractive in the preferred sex?
= eye n nose..
5. What is a goal you would like to accomplish in the near future?
= wanna get married as soon as possible.. hahas
6.shoe size?
= 7-8
7. Been to California?
= NOpe
8. When is the last time you had a massage?
= last year b4 i came to moscow
9. What was the last TV show you watched?
= quite a long time i din watch any movie
10. What are your plans for the weekend?
= study hard for final exam & anat...
11. If your significant other asked you to marry them TODAY what would you say?
= okies sure..
12. What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
= razkaz russian text..
13. If you could marry any celebrity today who would it be?
= the one i love for sure..
14. Have you ever been to a strip club?
= NOpe.
15. What is the best ice cream flavor?
= VANILLA
16. What is the last sporting event you watched?
= UEFA 2008..its amazing man..
17. Who is the last person you sent a present?
= tzeyin lot..
18. Ever gone camping?
= ya..lots time n great memories..
19. Where is your mom right now?
= malaysia home..
20. What color is your watch?
= silver & brown
21. Last phone call?
= few hours ago
22.Are you allergic to anything?
= yeah...touch..
23. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
= haha..my brown boots..hehe
24. What is one thing you have learned about life recently?
= dun try to change a person..coz if u try to change them n they cant make it..end up wit they cheat on u only..love the person for whom they r.
25. Do you own a cellphone?
= yup..for sure..i ade 20..duh..
26. Do any of your friends have children?
= yea..
27. What do you do at work?
= still study lar..
28. Who was your last kiss?
= hahas..HIm
29. What is your pet name?
= din hav any pet oso..
30. Ever cried for no reason?
= nope..
31. Do you have any piercings?
= yea.
32. Have you ever changed clothes while driving?
= yupe
33.Have you ever cleaned up someone else's vomit?
= yea...
34. What was the last thing you ordered at McDonalds?
= chicken fillet burger
35. What is the longest plane ride you have ever been on?
= malaysia-moscow
36. What is the longest road trip you have ever taken?
= alor star-kuala lumpur
37. What was your last alcoholic beverage?
= REDS..
38. Are you in love with someone right now?
= dunno..
39. What are you craving right now?
= malaysian food..seafood..

hahahas..

2008-06-01T15:48:00.002+03:00

1.Shortest relationship?
= 1 year & 4 months
2. Last gift you received?
= from my lovely Sgang n frens
3. Ever dropped a cell phone?
= yea
4. Last food you ate?
= biscuit
5. Last club you visited?
= dunno wat name in russia
6. Last smoke
= nope
7. One favorite song?
= i believe
.
8. Where do you live?
= alor star
.
9. Last wedding you attended:
= erm, my lovely fren ah shuang wedding
10. Last time you saw your friend?
= one hour ago
.
11. Where is your favorite place?
= malaysia
.
12. Can you cook?
= ya..quite well too..:p
.
13. Last time you cried?
= erm, friday..
14. Why?
= fail my ant..cry silently..
.
15. Hate most about yourself?
= angry with ppl
.
16. Can you sing?
= can..but rarely sing oso..
.
17. Do you smoke?
= nope
.
18. Pancakes or French toast?
= french toast
.
19. Do you like coffee?
= nope..but i like kopi o..
.
20. Last person who sends you a message?
= din use my phone quite a long time ad
.
21. What was the last text message you received?
=mm..soeyhie forward msg

22. Can you play pool?
= ya..but not terror
.
23. Can you swim?
= nope..
.
24. Favorite flavor of ice cream?
= vanilla
.
25. What time did you wake up this morning?
= 2.05pm in moscow time
.
26. What are you doing this week?
= chilling alot..
.
27. Are you smiling?
= hahas..nope..
.
28. Do you miss someone right now?
= yupe..
.
29. Do you have a crush?
= no
.
30. Do you have a sister?
= yesh..
.
31. Who is your closest cousin’s name?
= andy
.
32. What were you doing 10 minutes ago?
= answering all the question
.
33. if you were a color, what would you be?
=white
.
34. if you could go anywhere right now, where?
= malaysia
.
35. Food you're craving for right this minute?
= ya..biscuit
.
36. Name a person who's name starts with the letter "j"?
= Jo
.
38. Radio station you frequently listen to?
= hits fm
39. Where do you usually hang out?
= hostel lor..
.
40. if you were to change careers, what would you want it to be?
= manager of a company
.
41. What are you going to do tomorrow?
= finish my anat n histo coloq(test)
.
42. Favorite day?
= friday
.
43. Are you easy to get along with?
= yes, i am
.
44. What movie do you want to see right now?
= maybe indiana jones
.
45. Whose birthday is coming up?
= jiayyuan kot
.
46. How many kids do you want?
= at least 2
.
47. Where do you usually watch movies?
= my hostel..
.
48. Name one person which starts with the letter "m"?
= Mum
.
49. Favorite thing that you have now?
= reading blogs
.
50. Do you have any bestfriend that is an opposite sex? who?
= mm..quite a number..

boring..

2008-06-01T15:36:00.002+03:00

Name one person who always texts you.
. i rarely used my phone in russia
Do you think some people are born stupid?
. nope..
Name one negative thing about you?
. talk alot when i angry...
Are you happy, and if you know it clap your hands?
. yaya..for sure..
What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
. answering the question.
Dances you wanted to learn?
. dunno ye..any kinds...
Ever tried gymnastics?
. nope.
What was the last thing you bought?
. popcorn n beer
Do you talk a lot?
. sometimes..
Do you believe that love is blind?
. ya..it is
Where is your brother?
. din hav any brother lar..
How was your day yesterday?
. fun n nice...picnic..playing game n sing son in bible study..drink wit mira n dave..talking wit stea.carrine.jo,listening to yip ghost story & watching the eye 10 wit stea,jo.yunn min & tzeyin.
What is the last ice cream flavor you had?
. chocolate coated vanilla ice cream
People describe you as?
. different ppl different point of view on me..
Contented in life?
. nope..
Do people think you’re crazy?
. yea..
Do you skip meals?
. recently..
Do you consider yourself smart?
. not really.
Are you typically a jolly person?
. 50 %..hahas
Name one enemy of yours
. nope.but recently meet one super duper selfish person
Who’s the first person in your phonebook:
. adeline
What did the last text message you received say?
. soeyhie forward msg
Do you go to gym?
. nope...
Song playing at the moment:
. no song..
How do you cope with stress?
. study more..
Ever broken someone’s heart?
. not really..
What makes you happy?
. chatting wit my frens

another..wakaka..

2008-06-01T15:23:00.002+03:00

Name 5 things that you must have in your bag?
passport,student card,wallet,bus pass,n hostel pass..

2.Name 3 things you do when you're
really stressed:
chatting.lepak+ing.listening to music.

3.Name 3 things you are wearing right
now:
sweater.pants.t-shirt.
'
4.What are you thinking about right
now?
study n get all my zachut b4 back to malaysia.
'
5.Where is your phone?
on my bed.
'
6.Where do you sleep?
of course on my bed..duh..
'
7.Where did you buy the shirt you're
wearing?
4get ade..
'
8.What was the last thing you ate?
maggi lor..
'
9.What kind of cell phone do you have?
sony ericsson..white colour.
'
10.What is the closest item near you
that is white?
my lappie..
'
11.What is the last movie you watched
the eye 10..
'
12.When did you last feel a tree with
your bare hands?
mmm...long time ago i think..
'
::::: THE STRANGE Facts ::::
'
Odd facts about yourself:
1. Are you a photo addict?
sometimes..hehes
'
2. What were you doing this morning at
8am?
sleeping lolz..
'
3. Do you care for your friendster?
not really ..
'
4. How many different beverages have
you drank since yesterday?
4..water.juice.beer.coke.
'
6. What do you wish for?
study well..n i will appreciate every second in my life..
'
7. When was the last time you got
really hurt?
1 year & 79 days....
'
8. Any plans for tonight?
study lor..
'
9. Something you are excited about?
going back to malaysia soon..
'
10. What is your favorite flavor of
ice cream?
vanilla

11. Describe your key chains?
a pretty pinky key chain from my best fren soeyhie..
'
12. Do you know anyone in prison?
prison break..wakaka..
'
13. If so, who?
Michael Scofield..hahahas..
'
14. Party girl/boy or Home girl/boy?
half party n half home girl..

100 truth about me..

2008-06-01T15:09:00.002+03:00

001. Real name → KHOO VIVIEN
002. Nick name → VIVI
003. Eye color→ BLACK
004. Zodiac sign → LEO
005. Male or female → FEMALE
006. Elementary → SRJK(C) KEE CHEE..SRJK(C)PEI HWA
007. High School → SMJK KEAT HWA
008. College → ASIAN INSTITUDE OF MEDICINE SCIENCE AND TECHNOLOGY..(AIMST)
009. University → RUSSIAN STATE MEDICAL UNIVERSITY
010. Hair color → Black
011. Long or short → NOT REALLY LONG ENUF YET
012. Loud or Quiet → DEPENDS..
013. Sweats or Jeans → JEANS
014. Phone or Camera → PHONE..
015. Health Freak → NO
016. Drink or Smoke - DRINK BUT DIN SMOKE..
017. Crush on someone - NO
018. Eat or Drink - BOTH
019. Piercings → EARS
020. Tattoos → NOPE(THINKING TO HAV IT)
021. Righty or lefty → RIGHTY
FIRSTS :
023. First piercing → 19..HAHAS
024. First best friend → CINDY CHANG
025. First award → UPSR **
026. First crush → IN PRIMARY SCH..
027. First pet→ FISH(NO NAME)
028. First big vacation → Trip To LANGKAWI WITH MY WHOLE BIG FAMILY
CURRENTLY :
049. Eating → CHEESE BISCUIT
050. Drinking → ORANGE JUICE
052. I'm about to → STUDY NOW...
053. Listening to → THE REASON
054. Plans for today → STUDY THE WHOLE DAY N RASSKA
055. Waiting for → NOTHING
YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kid/s? → YEA..SURE
059. Want to get married? → OF COURSE!
060. Careers in mind → DOCTOR
WHICH IS BETTER WITH you?
068. Lips or eyes → LIPS
070. Shorter or taller → TALLER OF COURSE..
072. Romantic or spontaneous? → ROMANTIC...
073. Nice stomach or arms?- STOMACH
075. Hook-up or relationship? → SINGLE
077. Trouble maker or hesitant? → DUN THINK I HAV IT..
HAVE YOU EVER:
079. Drank bubbles? → NOPE
080. Lost glasses/contacts? → YUPE
081. Ran away from home? → YA..WHEN I WAS SMALL..
084. Broken someones heart → YUPE(FELT SORRY TO HIM ALOT)
085. Been arrested → NO
087. Cried when someone died? → YUPE(MY BELOVED GRANDFATHER)
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → YES
091. Love at first sight → YES
092. Heaven → YES
093. Santa clause → NO
094. Sex on the first date? → ABSOLUTELY NOT
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
095. Is there one person you want to
be with right now? → YESH
098. Are you seriously happy with
where you are in life? → YEA
99. Do you believe in God → OF COURSE
Post as 100 truth about " ME "
if you fee like it.

addicted in answering the question..

2008-05-28T20:21:00.000+03:00

1.Are u wearing a necklace?
niat(means no in russian)..keke

2.does your computer have a mouse?
ade tetikus je..

3.Who is the main person you talk to in each of your classes?
all lor..my class ppl's rocks.
4.Do you like school?
Ya..of course..

5.What color is your shirt?
blackie black..

6.How many bedrooms do you have in your house?
3 lor..

7.What song are you listening to?
din listen to anything now..

8.What was the last mall you've been to?
recently din hav time to go mall

9.Are you alone?
ya..

10.Do you have any older siblings?
niat tu..

11.What is the last thing you ate?
dave sandwich..hahas..

12.Who was the last person to come over to your house?
my classmates to wish nabeela for her birthday today

13.Who was the last person to call you?
peisze..

14.Who was the last person who texted you?
ziwei..ask me when i coming back..keke..

15.What time is it?
1.06 a.m-malaysia --9.06pm in russia

16.What should you be doing?
filling chem n anat n russian text in to my brain..

17.Who is the last person you IMed?
x tau

18.Did you go out to eat yesterday?
niat...NO EXTRA TIME for me in the whole week..

19.What are you thinking about right now?
sleep..zzz..damn tired wey..

20.What color are your pants?
black too..blac

21.What color is your keyboard?
white...

22.What do you feel like eating/drinking?
malaysia's food..i nak..laksa..ice kacang..seafoods..nasi lemak..roti canai..popiah..manggis..n alots more..

23.Are you in college?
niat tu..in uni

24.What is the last word you wrote?
me ans for physic exam

25.Are you bored?
not rely for the moment ..busy for tans of test..

26.How many teeth do you have?
dunno lar..

28.Do you wear glasses?
yes.since form 5 kot..

29.What color are your shoes?
white

31.Last thing you drank?
strawberry juice..n vitamin C water..

34.Who do you love?
everyone that i know..everyone around me..

35.What are you doing right now?
typing to ans this question..

37.what are you looking at now?
laptop screen..

38.What's the last word you said?
mira.i tido kat bilik i je..nanti i pi bilik u..

39.Do you have lip gloss on?
niat

40.Do you have eyeliner on?
niat tu..use it on formal function only..

41.Did u realize there was no question number 36?
huh??izit??i dunno ler..my eyes almost wanna close..

42.Do you have a cut on your pointer finger?
niat

43.Where is your cell phone?
on my table..mira juz called me..

44.Do you have any friends named robby?
niat..

46.Do you have any friends named nikki?
niat

47.Are you afraid of the dark?
mm..yea..

48.Did you used to watch "are you afraid of the dark"?
niat..

49.Do you like someone right now?
nope..

50.What size shoe are you?
7-8

STUDENT LIFE IN MOSCOW..

2008-05-19T16:11:00.003+03:00

saw this video clip made by students from my uni RSMU..find it very interesting..wanted to share wit my frens in malaysia...

more updates soon..

2008-05-12T11:59:00.002+03:00

feeling to update my blog more...but due to insufficient of times,i din update anything..more new post coming soon in this weekend for my frens in malaysia..

relieve...

2008-05-08T16:05:00.003+03:00

juz finished my 2 test today..relieve...muz study hard for 2 weeks more to finish everything..gambatei..cant be lazy ade..

nIce ouTing.. 2

2008-04-28T16:10:00.017+03:00

after kievsckaya shopping,the next day me accompany one of my frens went for his massad shopping at kremlin there...we went at 12 am & after we reached we stopped by at the planeta suhsi to fill up our stomach...after that we took some picture at the moscow tourist famous spot(red square)...

suhsi place...

superb nice unagi suhsi..

our" flower of tokyo "tea..like the taste n smell...

our foods..eel rice...seafood fried rice..n terayakki chicken with rice..

small toilet in the restaurant..

many ppls wedding's on that day at red square..

anaand..amy..me

how to mend a broken heart???

2008-04-28T15:49:00.004+03:00

recently some of my frens heart are like the picture..very suffering n live like a heartless human..

when a heart become like this....wat will u do to mend it back??

mend it by using a glue..or plaster..or sew it back wit needle..or stitch it??

went through this b4..the feeling rely sucks n tiring n dying oso....dun wanna all my frens gone through the same thing like me...cheer my dear fren..u know who u r..when u feel like talking juz nudge me anytime...GOD..i pray for U to make them stronger pls..

nIce ouTing..

2008-04-27T01:33:00.023+03:00

yesterday after class i went to thai airways to pay for my flight thicket..but the airway office close ade by the time we reached..haih...after that went to kievckaya mall to meet all my frens that shopping for massad attires at there...after did all the shopping we went to the park opposite the mall to hav some fun...

the mall

the toilet in the down part

kievekii bokzal

HITLER'S DAY

2008-04-25T00:53:00.000+03:00

thanks to this guy birthday that fall on 20th of april some of the classes were cancelled in the following days...well..he is Adolf Hitler (20 April 1889 – 30 April 1945) .i not rely know about his story..juz now he is a bad guy that take part in world war 1..he somehow or rather become the prime minister of russia once upon a time..dunno wat happen after that after he died,the day of his birthday the skinhead(which was the people who supported him)will came out..then..the foreigners will be beaten n whacked by them...coz they believed that the foreigners had ruptured russia last time..so they hate the foreigners..every year at 20th april..around the date we r advice not to go out for our safety..i found this thing very ridiculous..y only the government still allowed this skinhead whacking foreigners thing to happen in nowadays..hahas...ppl who want to know more about adolf hitler can go to the net nsearch bout his life history all..funny thing that i found in moscow..

PROCRASTINATION

2008-04-25T00:49:00.000+03:00

procrastination of study n something else is killing me off...alwiz make my plans all ruin..someone pls help me to sweep it away in my mind n body....arghhh...

specially for tiew mie....

2008-04-25T00:41:00.000+03:00

today i go through tiew mie blog..very touch when i saw that she know i tagged her..she did used to lazy to ans this tag question all..but she had ans my teg n one of her fren tagged at last..flashed back to the time she alwiz asked me to update my blog..she want to know more about my life here..but due to my super duper laziness to write a post about my activities here..i end up wit lefting my blog aside..ignoring it...feel so sorry to tiew mie since she the one who alwiz hoping me to blog...hav a new mission start from today..i will try my best to post every thing bout me at moscow start from today..sorry ya ah chor..alwiz make u disappointed..will try my best to upload all the pic of my recent life even i lazy to blog..juz pic with some words when i m lazy..hehes..miss u much..

bEinG TAGGED by miss amy..

2008-03-20T23:38:00.000+02:00

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
--> anytime when i ad ready for it..

2.If you can turn into anything, what do you wish you can turn into?
--> doreamon...give everything to those ppl who is lack of important thing in their life..

3.What you are thinking right now??
--> anatomy..

4.Where is the place that you want to go most?
--> dunno yet..din think b4..

5.If you have one dream to come true, what would it be?
--> adopt as many babies as i can

6.Do you believe in seeing the rainbow after the rain?
--> yesh..coz i do seen it many times

7.what are you afraid to lose the most right now?
--> everyone around me

8. What cheers you up for the rest of the day?
--> my sweetest friends..

9.If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
--> not rely..

10.List out three good things of the person who tagged you.
--> AMY
a) accept her weakness n try her best to change it..not everyone can did it..
b) confident
c) brave

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
--> ONLY ONE..din give up anytime to love me..

12.What type of person do you hate the most?
--> everyone hav there negative side..i dont hate ppl..try to accept their weakness or encourage them to change..

13.What would you do if you won a million dollars?
--> adopt kids..n use it for their future..for sure will left some of the money for myself n my family too..

14.What is your ambition?
--> to be a doctor..thats is y i being a medical student right now..

15.What would you wanna be after you're dead?
--> become human again..going through another new life again..

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
--> laziness..hehes..

17. what is your favourite color?
--> any colors that nice on that thing..

18.What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
--> everything around me are important for me

19. What's the last thing you think of before you go to sleep?
--> dun have insomnia again..

20. What would you do if tomorrow was the last day of the world?
--> meet everyone that i love..

Eight ppl that i wan to tag is.. (in no particular order)
1 . teko
2. tiew mie
3. jasmine
4. siew suen
5. gajean
6. yee wei
7. ek wyn
8. mira

ghoSt Film department

2008-01-29T21:18:00.000+02:00

the front view of the building during autumn

my ghost film department

due to dunno wat stupid reason..i came n started my class late in the uni..everyone old student ad started their classes at september..but me n some others late comers started at november..totally 2 month we misses out the syllabus..its fine..coz our teacher are good..they teached us start from the first lesson..n some of the subject had extra class for free..not like other uni tat need to pay rm 5000 for extra class..n their extra class is on the winter break..wat a pity for them...in first year they divided the student in 2 division..anat department n mopho department...for me the "LATE COMER" have to group into mopho department.. both department have the differences..lets c>>>>

1..ANAT DEPARTMENT-they learn more anatomy than histology..n their anatomy is tougher than our anats..they need to memories more thingy than us..but their department had a nice classroom...many cadavers..many bones for student to borrow..nice lecture hall...

2...MOPHO department - totally more terrible than anat dprt..the things all vice versa..we learn more histology than anatomy..histology is nothing tough to read compare to anatomy..but may b u will become blind if u r not used to it..coz histology test is about determine wat cells in our body n explain how it formed..
----DETERMINE the slide - the department din hav a high tech microscope..they used only light microscope tat when looking the slide u muz close one eye..if u r superb u can use both eyes..one eye for looking the slide n one eye for drawing the cells which u saw.. i cant reached the high level of eye kung fu..so i use one eye open one eye closed kung fu to c the slide..which make my eye very tired after class..besides the microscope..
----the most terrible things is our department had only one cadaver..all the first n 2nd year student of the deartment muz shared to use..n the number of bones r very less..juz hav all one set...cant borrow it back home to study oso..
----the sad thing is our lecture hall was very very small n stuffy..the lecture hall like the small church n the blackboard in a bad condition..u cant even c clearly when u used chalk to write on it..so imagine when there during lecture how the students gonna to know wat the teacher writing..n the lecturer write n draw the parts of the body n explain it very fast..i m alwiz half blur after the lecture..

to go to the building muz walk a distance from the main building of the uni..for winter now less daylights we can only c the sun about 4 hours per day..so every time after class the day ad dark ..the road near the building was pitch dark n windy..it make us very cold n scare when walked along the road..

i suggested that the director should filmed a ghost movie at there..hehe..hmm...next sem i will go take some pic of the inside part of the 'ghostly' building...

mY winter break...

2008-01-29T21:01:00.001+02:00

i had 3 weeks winter breaks...wats i m going to do???????actually i n some of my frenz ad planned to go egypt at the early of jan......at last the plan spoiled by the uni...my student visa cant done in time..i cant go to other country ad..wat a sad thing...have to cancel the actual plan..sobz..everyone was going to their trip..somes went to egypt some went to Europe n some went to england..n the worst part is some went back to MALAYSIA..the place tat i wish to go now...misses that place so muchie..haih..n now..the winter break ad pass one week..wat i did in this special "one week " was..SLEEPING..SHOPPING..EATING N EATING..CHATTING..life seemed to be so bored..still got 2 more weeks to go...how i m going to spend it??any ideas...??i dun care..i muz go for travel next year no matter wats going on..nothing gonna stop me from going..

started..

2007-12-18T13:26:00.000+02:00

this is my room in russia...when i first came i quite shook when c the condition of the hostel..it much more different then the hostel which i used to live in aimst..

when Malaysia to moscow..

2007-12-01T16:34:00.001+02:00

well..it had been one month i stayed at moscow...in this one month were busy doing my stuff n studying due to i had miss out almost 2 month lesson...my fren keep buzzing me to post my new life picture...so today since i was free i juz decided to post some of the pic which i had taken..

fiRst.....

2007-09-09T20:34:00.000+03:00

juz created my new blog here...i like to read people blog...spend my days on viewing others blog...so today i decided to create my own blog here...to write down my life journey...my memories all...